Ice cold.

As I look into his eyes,
That once showed bright love and affection.
And all I see now is something
That I never saw before,
Cold ice.

As the hugs became to linger
As the nights became abandoned
I felt something in him
That i never thought would be
A part of him…
Cold ice.

As we used to talk before
With the laughter and compassion
Now all I sense is
The emptiness of our talks
The ice of his tone.

The ice wrapped me around itself,
Shivering me and making my bones ache,
From inside through out.

And that is when i felt his real feelings toward me
Cold ice.

But I will break through,
But I must fight.
And his cold ice,
Shall be broken into pieces.

And I shall win,
The battle of ice.

As I said in the previous post, I am currently reading a book that well, is not “appropriate” for my age. And in it there was a part where this lady got a very rich boyfriend,handsome, careful about her feelings and seemed smart. There was a sudden moment when she realized the part within him that she never saw because of all the expensive jewelry,shoes,bags, the guy was gifting her and that part in his corner of his eyes almost glowed with one word:ice.The fact that nothing meant anything to him. Her existence or her “love” toward him.

So this is a poem to all those ladies sitting there, feeling abandoned. Screw the once who made your self esteem break apart. Screw those who made you fall on your knees. This is the time for you to get up. And to learn your lesson, that for every give there is a take. And for every taken, there must be a given back. Wether it is love,money,help or favor. So be careful to what you ask for.

Blankness of a writer.

Blank is my screen and blank is my head
What to write darling
No clue in my mind
Looking to the right

Looking to the left
What kind of torture to an artist
With no sense in mind

To write is my passion
To read is my love
But right now all I want to do
Is cuddle up in my covers
Of my sweetest bed
That seduces me so well.

Another day and another blank mind of this hopeless writer. I just can’t get my self to write. And if I do… it is just a bunch of meaningless words for me and probably for you too. I do hope my writer within will get up from the sleep mode sooner, as I do know how blank my blog is becoming nowadays!

Sarah Dessen.

I haven’t written for a long time again. Summer vacation going through and catching my hand to the land of laziness. Where I am laying down, eating, hanging out with friends, and reading reading and reading… It does feel amazing to just die into a book and not be bothered thinking when to get up and study, when to get up and go jogging before I become so fat I don’t fit in my clothes. But one thing inspired me to write today is when I searched Sarah Dessen‘s official web site. In it she has her books list, her description of it, the books description and on top of that, in the corner you see her own BLOG. As in literally her own daily life, the way she lives, the way she thinks. And oh my god, she inspires me.

Sarah Dessen

And as I was going through her books, you can’t believe it but I felt like buying all of them. Not because of those sparkly covers that pull you and scream READ ME, not just because of the book description that give you an insight of the book and seduce you to buy them. But because the writer explains how her life made her write this book. How certain consequences drop you to a hole, and then the only word you use is well, let me give you a hint, it kind of stinks. So getting to the point, I hope some day I can inspire someone by writing something. By going through moments of life, and they might as well be a bit stinky, but I hope, that like Sarah, I will sit down, and just let the world pass by, and all I will do is, make my self my yummy green tea, sit, and write. And by writing it all down, I will get to a point that I will understand what I am going through. And all the pain that I encountered, all of it, I will take it in, and turn it back into my  writing. So next time, when someone stumbles across my book, they smile and enjoy my book. The book that I may have written while crying or laughing. But the book that I wrote though my little experience in this world.

Click here to open her site. And I do hope you go through the description and buy some of her books! Because she is indeed a very inspiring writer.

And just before I end my post, I do want to tell you that I have read ” Fire spell” by Chloe Neill.The book is all about friendship,love and magic that is wrapped around all the bonds the people have with each other. Even though it takes time to build the story, to get to the point, you will realize you read half of the book already. And when it gets exciting and all yummy, the writer doesn’t make it long lasting, the book ends! I was so disappointed that it ended. But oh well, we all go through the moments of sadness when the book is finally read and done.

Currently reading” Desperate In Dubai” by Ameera Al Hakawati.

Both are amazing books to read. The second one is pretty much disturbing for my age. Haha! Right. But well it is about 4 women who land on the city full of glamour,richness, fashion and all of the things around it, living their lives, thinking one, and getting something else. It is pretty much all about sex,men, and women who try with all their guts getting a man with all that they need. Pretty much like looking for their prince charming. The hot, sexy, rich, charming, smart guy who will cross their road and marry them. But little did they know that they end up in a moment of truth, that there is no such thing as perfection. There ain’t no guy over there, who will be all of the above. That if they want smart and charming, they won’t get rich. And vise versa. So ladies, if you are into drama, fashion, and on top of that want to know more about Dubai, you should get ready to get your nails on this book!

Quotes and sayings for today.

Always happens to me. Always end up standing alone in the corner. But at least, I will know that in that corner someday there will be someone who will stand next to me, hold my hand and be there truly for me. Just for me…

Credits goes to the site ( look below left at the picture). So dear readers, choosing what is right is hard, in many ways. But trust me, you won’t regret making that decision later on.

Happy weekend.


Music. What does that mean to you? For me, it is the guitar strings that vibrate, and by that the vibrate my heart. For me it is the piano buttons that are mastered by those beautiful hands that I might never be able to meet. But all together, that beautiful voice, those words that mean something. The sound that screams with emotion, that touches your heart and makes it fall down from all the emotion each and every word contains.

But unfortunately, we lost the meaning of music. Mostly, we listen to things just for a while, and then we forget. Music was suppose to mean something, give you an image of a specific moment. But now, it lost that.

Following are some of the songs I just found and find the beautiful. I usually listen to slow songs. But heck, I guess you will find something in the list you would like.

1) Birdy “Skinny love“.
2)  Birdy “People help the people“.
Recommend to listen to the whole album.
3) Paul McCartney ” My Valentine” .
4)Christina Perri ” Thousand Years”
5)Lady Antebellum ” We Owned The Night”
6)Lady Antebellum ” American Honey”
7) The ScriptWe Cry
8)James Morrison “Broken Strings
9) James Morrison”Pieces Don’t Fit Anymore”
10) James Morrison “You Give Me Something
11) The Script “Breakeven”
12) The Script “I’m Yours”
13)The Script “Talk You Down”
14) Secondhand Serenade “Something More”

Here you go. Do listen to the whole album of the singer if you like these songs. But honestly, I never got rap and rock. Kill me, but I could never take it as music. Not that I say who listen to them have bad taste, but beside these genres, wouldn’t you agree some songs are just literally LAME? Like they don’t even have a sense, no emotion, just some sentences pulled together and became a hit. What on earth is happening?