Ice cold.


As I look into his eyes,
That once showed bright love and affection.
And all I see now is something
That I never saw before,
Cold ice.

As the hugs became to linger
As the nights became abandoned
I felt something in him
That i never thought would be
A part of him…
Cold ice.

As we used to talk before
With the laughter and compassion
Now all I sense is
The emptiness of our talks
The ice of his tone.

The ice wrapped me around itself,
Shivering me and making my bones ache,
From inside through out.

And that is when i felt his real feelings toward me
Cold ice.

But I will break through,
But I must fight.
And his cold ice,
Shall be broken into pieces.

And I shall win,
The battle of ice.

As I said in the previous post, I am currently reading a book that well, is not “appropriate” for my age. And in it there was a part where this lady got a very rich boyfriend,handsome, careful about her feelings and seemed smart. There was a sudden moment when she realized the part within him that she never saw because of all the expensive jewelry,shoes,bags, the guy was gifting her and that part in his corner of his eyes almost glowed with one word:ice.The fact that nothing meant anything to him. Her existence or her “love” toward him.

So this is a poem to all those ladies sitting there, feeling abandoned. Screw the once who made your self esteem break apart. Screw those who made you fall on your knees. This is the time for you to get up. And to learn your lesson, that for every give there is a take. And for every taken, there must be a given back. Wether it is love,money,help or favor. So be careful to what you ask for.

Unknown.


I look at you,feeling that you’re home.
I acknowledge the inadvertent  pulse to come closer,
To talk to you, to laugh with you.
To be a close person you could lay your shoulder on.

So I take a step, a hesitant breath.
Unsure of how to come closer.
And suddenly I see a wall.
Of someone standing over.
Breaking the bond I wish I could extend longer.

So I think again,doubting myself.
So I step away, inadvertently.

I am sorry. I can see,
Every pain in every of your corner.
Of those beautiful eyes of yours…
All the tiredness hidden inside,
But sparking for me like the moon light.

I want to from all my heart,
To touch the pain and ease it.
To somehow pull it away from you.
To embrace it all together.

But oh all thee, if you could let me,
To just come,a step closer…

There are plenty who love you,
There are plenty who want to be you.
But we all know, that not many,
Can still pull a smile in a day of disorder.

All inside I do always feel,
If only I could come closer,
I could love you more longer
Than any of them all together.

I wish sometimes I could be your friend,
But it seems like a fairy tale,
To this person writing a poem-a
About this beautiful person,about you.

I hope I am not selfish,
And if I am I apologize.
As I can’t help my self in the end of the day,
When I close my eyes, thinking about my tale.

I hope someday you will reach up to me,
As I was too weak to do it myself.
And for now good bye my soul friend.
As I can no longer take it any further.

 

Well, I do apologize for this huge poem, tried to make it somehow in a half, but simply impossible. I really wanted to tell you guys how much emotions of mine were spilled into this poem. Hopefully it will show you with the words I chose. And about the brake I took, I guess you see I broke it! But I can’t promise you that I will be publishing constantly. These 2 weeks were pretty pressurized for me, too much to study and not enough time! But oh well, I am done! 2 more weeks of exams, and I am completely free! And I am planning to learn the native language over here. Arabic. So my summer will be filled with poetry, studies, books and beaches. And of course, with my friends and family.

The writer got a crush.


Okay, as much as I hate to admit it, it feels like I have a crush. I hate having a crush. Those cheesy moments when your thinking about that guy, and then thinking if he likes you back. I mean who the heck cares? Why can’t you just live your life with out any crushes? Why does it have to be me? 😦

The times when your friends tease you about that and you try to have a serious face… Oh god… this is torture! And I feel stupid about that. I mean its not that I don’t watch romantic movies or read about love, its just the fact that I don’t want to be in it. I find it too distracting. So my dear viewers, if the next few weeks you see really cheesy poems, I am sorry, because I think you will have to suffer with that! And if you are curious about the guy, I won’t tell you. All I can say is that I played tennis with him, and he is seriously good. Like I love his play, not how he looks like, or whatever, but his play! And its silly, I know. And I feel I am the most stupidest person for having feelings for him. I mean, why? Like I wish there wasn’t something like feelings. Well I will try not having that at least until I finish university, because the last thing I want to think about at nights is about some dude when in reality I should be worrying about my test!

What do you think about relationships? Comment please… maybe I will feel better seeing you having the same opinion! 😀

This is probably how I feel and look like at the moment.