One step back or one step forward.

We all have the times where we are in between of something, where we have to choose to dare to do it or just sit there all alone and find another excuse to cover our faults. It might be about beggining a conversation in a group that already knows each other, doing that extra 15 minutes on the treadmill, being in a diet and thinking if that chocolate is worth it or not. There are many times in out life where we stand in between and we have the power to choose. And I love to challenge my self with those things.

I challenge my self inside, thinking that if I have enough will power to do it. I challenge my self to do even embarrassing things just to know if i have the courage to out stand it. To stand in the middle of all the people, smile at their faces and look like I haven’t done anything.When I want to do something and I can feel the fear in me thinking that maybe thats not the right thing. I just do it. Because after doing it I can feel that I achieved something! That the fear wasn’t worth it after all.

All I can say is that, if you are a teenager and you are sitting there in a corner not knowing how to start a conversation with a group, just smile, say hi, make a compliment about someone’s hair, clothes, anything! And tada  you have a conversation flowing. If you are thinking to lose weight, trust me you will love it there in the gym, sweating like hell but yet feeling like you can fly from the exercises after a few days of getting used to it. You feel better about your self. I know that the world doesn’t stop here, that there are far, way far even more tough challenges, but to be honest, those challenges can still be compared to this. It is about how big you take it, how big you see it.

Life is simple,beautiful, in ever step it will kick us at the bottom and be like:” Surprise!”  But it is us who will eventually take it in and get angry or happy or take it neutral, all that matters is how you think of it. Simple as that.


Mother, light of my darken world.

Looking at the endless tunnel

Tunnel filled with hope and strength

Maybe I should turn back

Maybe this is isn’t the right thing…


What should I do, I wonder

Should I step ahead or stop.

Suddenly I see a glimpse of light

A light and then someone holding me tight.


” Mother…”  said I, feeling the echo of the word

Mother, my mother, is standing next to me right now.

She is holding my hand while  standing next to me

Smiling,the smile I could never forget


She gave me the confidence to step into the tunnel

Into the tunnel where in some parts it might be dark

But I know my mother will be there for me

I know she will guide me through it.


I step in and see the world

A world where there are endless hopes and dreams

Where people dream every night

Where people fear every day


But there are no worries for me

My mother will be next to me.

No words can describe this picture.

To hold me, to love me

My feel my pain and struggle.

My reason of life.